More Drama

Well, I'm still dealing with the landlord. I've also been actively facebooking. So, if you don't see my updates here? Check over there to see what's going on.

News: I passed the Con Edison placement exam. Problem is, I have to wait to be called. Pain in the ass. I have to come up with 1,000 dollars by the end of this month or I'm screwed. I do suspect, however, that my managing agent would be happy to see any such money from me and would work with me. They waited last year? They'll probably wait again. Not that I'm counting on it, but I'm tired of the doom and gloom of lawyers over there.

In the meantime, I have to find something ANYTHING to get my ass ready. I'm putting together a syllabus to take my mind off this mess for my ESL kids, which I teach on Saturday mornings. That will also take time, since the summer program doesn't start until May. I'm also going to contact Baruch's continuing education school, where they're always looking for ESL students.

And one happy note: my childhood friend's sister contacted me because of a funny thing I put up on facebook. I stated, and not quite seriously, that if 20 friends sent me $50? I'd have that $1,000. Well, this funny gal actually did it thru her husband's account. Since I've never given away names (with the exception of Meg, because Meg is truly one of a kind!), I'll call her Deedle, which is part of a longer email address. Very few of you would know her, but if you know my childhood friend, you'll figure it all out.

Facebook, for all its intracacies, has given me part of my humanity back. I'm almost humbled by how many people remember me. And how: words like "intellectual", "tenacious", "grace", "humor", "writer", "joker" and "wonder" pop up in these emails. I am floored.

It's still taken me all this time to realize that I have worth, after all the negativity and sociopathic/pathological behavior I've been trying to shake off these past two years. The negative always sticks with me, I know I've got to work out getting rid of it all. Chef came thru, as well, with $100 so I could pay this lawyer today. I didn't expect it, but he and his wife didn't even blink.

And hopefully, I'll still have my apartment. So, some of you readers will be getting an interesting email.

Maybe, just maybe, I'm worth it.